HANK PHILLIPPI RYAN: Have you ever wished for a do-over? To go back two steps or two hours or two days? Grab your tea or coffee and spend a few minutes today with the very thought-provoking Lori Gold. And see if your outlook on life gets changed a bit.
Is Any of This
Even Real?!
by Lori Gold
Apparently the answer to that is no. Or no-ish?
Recently, scientific articles originally published a couple of years ago have been popping up in my Instagram feed. (Side note: The adage of “be careful what you wish for” is being replaced by “be careful what you click on once.”)
The posts are from places like WIRED and people like Neil deGrasse Tyson, not unfamiliar sources, which I think makes what I’m about to say scarier? Because in each of them, there’s an argument being made that we’re living in a computer simulation. That none of this, everything around us, even us, is “real,” or at least what we consider “real.” The idea is apparently based on quantum theories and physics and all sorts of things we, as writers, pretend don’t exist because we live in a world of stories.
Wait a second…we live in a world of stories. To us, to writers and to many readers, our worlds are “real.” But they aren’t, objectively, right? That’s not the same as what these articles are proposing. They’re saying, and I’m talking 50-50 chance, that this is all some sort of elaborate video game (I’m paraphrasing). Like The Matrix (I’m assuming). That this universe and the lives we have were made up by something else, in this case, some super-duper-powerful computer (not a technical term). What if it’s true? Does that change the way we live? Should it?
This type of philosophical thinking has always interested me (more explanation for what pops up in my social media feed!). As a form of entertainment, grounded speculative is one of the genres I love, from TV shows like Lost to movies like Palm Springs, to books like This Time Tomorrow by Emma Straub, The Midnight Library by Matt Haig, One Italian Summer by Rebecca Serle, Maybe Next Time by Cesca Major, and the list goes on.
Each one tackles some form of speculative element, be it time travel, a time loop like Groundhog Day, or parallel universes. And like the notion of living in a simulation, these are backed by scientific theory.
While writing my latest novel, a grounded speculative, I did a lot of research into quantum physics. My novel centers on three women who each make a choice while playing the conversation game, kiss, marry, kill and wind up in an alternate universe where they have to live out the choices they made—and their consequences. This led me down the rabbit hole of the multiverse and many-worlds interpretation. The theory goes (and remember, I write fiction, so grain of salt!) that every time a decision is made, the outcome not taken branches off into a different reality. Every time. That means the universe has split and is still splitting into near-infinite alternatives.
Theoretically, then, we have lived and are living every version of our life. I became obsessed with what that means for us on a very personal level, especially, the pressure we all put on ourselves every day to make the “right” choice. As if this job or that partner or that cute, tassely-throw pillow from Target will solve our every problem.
If we get to live every version of our life, what does that do to this idea of making the “perfect” choice? What does it do for you personally and the way you make decisions? Would you want to get the chance to live another version of your life? What would you hope to be? Who would you hope is there with you?
Ultimately, I think that’s what these scientific theories that show up in my feed and these stories we writers build from them do: they make us think about who we are, who we hoped to be, and hopefully encourage us to close the gap.
HANK: I am living this particularly right now, and it leads me to wonder whether–and I’m not talking about the moral ethical “right” decision, but a physical choice of A thing or B thing, either of which could be fine but there’s no way to know. And there’s no way to know, because that would mean we could predict each and every thing that would come after the decision, which is impossible.
(And I adore speculative fiction. WRONG PLACE WRONG TIME is one of the best books I've ever read.)
What do you think, Reds and Readers?Would you want to get the chance to live another version of your life? What would you hope to be? Who would you hope is there with you?
And Lori, congratulations on the new book!
About the Author
Lori Gold is the author of KISS, MARRY, KILL (Harper/Park Row, April 7, 2026) and the NPR Book of the Day and Zibby Media Summer Read pick ROMANTIC FRICTION (Harper/MIRA 2025). She is also the author of an adult historical and four novels for young adults (all under Lori Goldstein). She currently lives outside of Boston, where she fosters a writing community through her creative writing classes, book coaching, and writing retreats. She can be found on Instagram (@lorigoldsteinbooks;) and at http://www.lorigoldsteinbooks.com.
Kiss, Marry, Kill
Which would you choose: kiss, marry, or kill?
When three best friends and founders of a health and wellness app on the verge of hitting the big time play a spin on the game of “kiss, marry, kill” at their company’s summer outing, they wake up the next morning in an alternate universe to discover they’ve each done just that.
Kiss: In the “real world,” quiet, indecisive Aubrey is heartbroken over things ending with her fiancé. In the new reality ushered in by the game, Aubrey finds herself in bed, naked, next to their company’s newly hired graphic designer.
Marry: Practical, straight-laced Ilena, on the brink of a divorce following a stressful struggle with infertility, wakes up six months pregnant and married to their company’s general counsel.
Kill: Mallory’s philosophy is to ask neither forgiveness nor permission. Yet the reckless behavior of their biggest investor crosses lines even Mallory didn’t know she had. Especially since she’s been secretly sleeping with him for the past year. She’s mad enough to kill. But in this world, he’s already dead.
Told alternately from the perspectives of these three best friends, this Sliding Doors-esque story explores the nuances of ambition, the power of female friendship, and the many facets of love in our lives, ultimately asking: Do our choices define us, or do we define our choices?
IF YOU WANT TO Link to the books mentioned, here they are:
This Time Tomorrow
Midnight Library https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-midnight-library-a-gma-book-club-pick-a-novel-matt-haig/0e23137cd6964727?ean=9780525559498&next=t
One Italian Summer https://bookshop.org/p/books/one-italian-summer-a-novel-rebecca-serle/69509ba44a56aa62?ean=9781982166809&next=t
Maybe Next Time https://bookshop.org/p/books/maybe-next-time-a-reese-witherspoon-book-club-pick-cesca-major/5c485651b2067904?ean=9780063239975&next=t




Congratulations, Lori, on your new book . . . definitely on my must-read list as now I'm wondering how Aubrey, Ilena, and Mallory deal with the changes they encounter in their alternate universes . . .
ReplyDeleteI'm not certain I would want to give up the people in my life in the hopes of finding them in another version of my life. And suppose I despised that alternate version? It seems too fraught with disappointments to wish for that opportunity [but it would be great fun to speculate about what an alternate version might be like] . . . .
Got to agree… Once you give yourself options, it opens a whole can of worms, doesn’t it?
DeleteSpoiler: they don't deal all that well...at first! I think speculating is cathartic!
DeleteThe above is Lori--sorry about the Anonymous!
DeleteLori, you have a great concept for this book. Predestination played out in full. That's so interesting. I was just having a conversation with a friend about how we might all be living at different times in different lives, but at the same time. I would like to get to live another version of my life, but, of course, that has so much to do with my son being murdered three years ago the end of this month. I am certain Kevin, my son, would still be in whatever version of life I live or have lived. I believe in the concept of soul groups, and I know he and I are in the same one. There are some others who I think are in my soul group, but I know there would be plenty of surprises, too. I think during this one life we're living now that we live so many different lives, from childhood until death. We are different people in our life at different times. And, I've become much more open to the thought that we have more than one lifetime. I don't know if we do, but there is some interesting evidence that points to it, like small children remembering things from a past life. The possibilities are wide open.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a dear friend, Kathy. And such an inspiration. I have never heard about soul groups, that is absolutely fascinating, and so intriguing. Xxxx
DeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. I think being open to things is so important as there is so much in this world that we can never explain. I love the concept of soul groups.
DeleteThe above is Lori--sorry about the Anonymous!
DeleteThis is very complex thinking for 5:45 in the morning, LOL. Your book sounds fascinating and challenging, Lori, and I can't imagine having written it!
ReplyDeleteIn my 7 plus decades, I have had very few regrets, and changing something could change a lot of other things for the worse. I'm sticking with what I have.
And certainly to be careful what you wish for, right?
DeleteHaving few regrets speaks to a well-lived life! Thank you for coming by.
DeleteThe above is Lori--sorry about the Anonymous!
DeleteFascinating premise Lori! I wouldn't want to change what I have now, for sure, but would like a re-do on some dumb mistakes from the past:)
ReplyDeleteBut that’s also the interesting part, because we learned from those mistakes, didn’t we. And that changed our life.
DeleteIt's tricky because I feel like you, Lucy, I'd want a redo! But Hank is wise. Without those, do we learn and grow?
DeleteThe above is Lori--sorry about the Anonymous!
DeleteWhat Edith said. For an author, how complicated is a story like this just to keep track of of, let along imagine in the first place? I am in awe.
ReplyDeleteMy book club read In the Midnight Library a couple years ago, and we had one of our top three best discussions. Sounds like Kiss, Marry, Kill will prompt equally deep and interesting conversation, Lori.
To expand on Edith's last paragraph, my personal philosophy is that everything happens for a reason (and I know this is not a popular idea with many), and that everything I experience in life accumulates to make me the person I am. So if I am happy with how I've "turned out", why would I regret anything that my life has given to me, good, bad, or indifferent? Living with regrets seems to be a harmful way to go on, at least it would be for me. Your mileage may vary, as always.
There are different ways to look at it, right? Whether you look at an individual moment, or how that moment fit in The puzzle of your life. And one different puzzle piece makes the puzzle picture totally different.
DeleteThank you, Karen! If your book club reads it let me know! Yes, this one was quite the challenge to write and revise .I have a "murder board" of sorts to keep track of it all. I do think we are the sum of our parts so to speak but so many don't have your wise perception of it!
DeleteThe above is Lori--sorry about the Anonymous!
DeleteWould I like to live in a reality other than the one I'm currently occupying? Well, I guess that depends on whether it is a better one than this one. I mean if I'm rich, dating a supermodel and can read all the books I want whenever I want, that might be a good alternate reality.
ReplyDeleteBut if I'm in one that's worse than this one suddenly my current crappy reality doesn't seem that bad.
Well put, as always!
DeleteThis is Lori: all about having perspective!
DeleteHi Lori, Welcome. The book sounds wonderful--and what a work of imagination!
ReplyDeleteWow. I think I would only want to live another version of my life if I could take the wisdom and perspective I've gained over the years. I wouldn't want to go back to being the anxious 25 year old.. I certainly have regrets about things I've left undone.but I am happy in my life and find a lot of meaning in what I am doing right now.
What I love about this is how we are all seeking the rules, for how the change could be, what we could keep And what would have to be different. We are so hilarious!
DeleteThis is Lori. Thank you, Gillian! I think this is the hard part--living another version of your life WITH your current knowledge could be fascinating. But without...?
DeleteThank you, Lori, for introducing me to the term "grounded speculative fiction." I was not familiar with that as a genre, but I am clearly already a fan of it. THE MIDNIGHT LIBRARY and WRONG PLACE, WRONG TIME are among my favorite books of the past few years. Clearly I will want to read KISS, MARRY, KILL, too!
ReplyDeleteMy world view is similar to what Karen said. I'm not sure everything happens for a reason, exactly, but I do think every experience shapes who I become. So now, happy and healthy in retirement with a good life, I would be reluctant to start pulling threads to change some of the less pleasant experiences along the way for fear of unintended consequences. I survived them then and went on to thrive now. That's enough.
That seems like such a perfect and healthy way to look at it…
Delete“Pulling threads” is such an excellent description for this.
DeleteThis is Lori. I love grounded speculative! Happy and healthy stems from all you've been through. And yes, who knows what would happen if you pulled a thread...
DeleteHi Lori! Fascinating concept for your book. Look forward to checking it out.
ReplyDeleteI suspect that I've been here on this planet several times with several of the same people so that I could grow and work out issues from past lives. Sounds weird, but given some of the situations in my life and the empowerment I felt when I took control of my life and made healthy decisions for me vs. being a doormat, indicates to me I've been growing as a soul and evolving to my own truth.
With that in mind, I totally agree with Karen that everything happens for a reason, you just have to parse out what you need to learn to facilitate your growth spiritually and emotionally. At least, that's how my life has played out. Think about those times when you feel like you've known someone for years. Who knows, maybe you have, it was just in another life. -- Victoria
And isn’t it fascinating to think so?
DeleteHealthy decisions and taking control are not easy. I love your perspective on this.
DeleteFascinating! I'm a huge fan of good time travel stories. The Time Traveler's Wife! Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Ascoban! To name two... Thanks for sharing, Lori. I can only imagine how you have to turn your mind into a pretzel to pull tis off.
ReplyDeleteI love time travel stories! And yes, my mind definitely was on overdrive writing this!
DeleteCongrats Lori
ReplyDeleteNPR has a "timely" report today about time. Which is very intriguing.
"Our Lives Are Ruled By the Illusion of Time" by G. Brumfield
Time is a concept so central to our daily lives. Yet, the closer scientists look at it, the more it seems to fall apart.
Time ticks by differently at sea level than it does on a mountaintop. The universe's expansion slows the passing of time. There are periods of the universe's existence where time gets twisted beyond recognition.
"And some scientists think time might not even be 'real' — or at least not fundamental," says NPR science correspondent Geoff Brumfiel.
Oh, thank you! I am looking this up right away!
DeleteThank you! I'll have to go read that now!
DeleteCongratulations, Lori on your new novel! I thought of Matt Haig's MIDNIGHT LIBRARY and the movie Sliding Doors. I was also reminded of a Hallmark movie with Lacey Chabert where she plays this hardworking career woman living in a high rise apartment where the furniture looks like it came straight out of the showroom. She wakes up one morning to find that she married the love of her life and have two daughters. I forgot the title of the movie. Such a fascinating concept.
ReplyDeleteWhat would my parallel universe look like? At the risk of being political here, my parallel universe would look like this:
Women and men get equal pay for the same work. A year of maternity leave from work without the risk of losing my job. My husband would have paternity leave too. Free baby boxes for all newborns.
Health insurance will cover everything. No co-pays. More bicycles than cars. Less chemicals in our food supply. Teachers can live on what they earn instead of having to work a second job (Uber) just to pay the bills. Empathy education starting in kindergarten. Free tuition for colleges. Everyone will be housed. No litter. No graffiti. Clean streets. No stray animals because they all will have human families. Deaf people will be treated like human beings instead of Charity cases. Deaf people and people with disabilities will have full access. A woman President of the USA who puts people above profits.
Diana, I think many of us would sign up for your parallel universe. — Pat S
DeleteNorway and other Scandinavian countries come pretty close to your world Diana in terms of a good society -- other than the weather!. I'd add they have very little crime too.
DeleteDiana - A shot out to Portland Oregon - my son-in-law works at Portland State University and he received 3 months paid paternity leave for the birth of both his children. While the mother working at PSU can receive up to 20 weeks.
DeleteAnd Portland is a wild place for bicyclists!! Watch out!! In a good way.
I’m voting for you!
DeleteAlso signing up for this world!
DeleteI am very read for your world!
DeletePat S., Hank, Lisa in Long Beach and Lori, thank you for your kind words.
DeleteI've been thinking recently about all the regrets I've had over the years. I wished I could do more of what I wanted vs what I felt obligated to do, which has created a lot of anger over the years.Then I started really looking at my life and decided to find the good and positive in the people in life. It has made a major difference in releasing anger and accepting what I do have, not some imagined "better" life.
ReplyDeleteI think many of us struggle with similar feelings. Focusing on the positive is exactly what I try to do (not always successful but life is a work in progress, right?).
DeleteI don’t believe that everything happens for a reason, but I do believe that we can, if we choose, turn something horrible into something good. (“Make lemons into lemonade.”) I’m grateful that I chose to “look for the good” in some of the most traumatic or unsettling events of my life. I have dear friends that I would never have met, and I’ve learned that I’m much stronger than I ever thought I could be. My life isn’t perfect but I know that if I put my mind to it, I can survive and thrive.
ReplyDeleteDebRo
I am championing you, Deb!
DeleteGood points Deb R - and to quote the great W.T.Pooh "You are braver than you believe, Stronger than you seem..."
ReplyDeleteI think the "thing" happens first then we assign a reason to it.
Well said.
DeleteWinnie The Pooh is very wise isnt he!!
DeleteLori how do the Eastern religions figure into your beliefs or knowledge of past lives, reincarnation and time.
ReplyDeleteInteresting thought. Not currently something I focus on, actually.
DeleteMe either but the little I know about Easterns religions (Tao, Buddhism, Hinduism, etc.) Is that they believe in transcendence - meaning your soul comes back (not your body) as another person or living thing depending on your life choices (karma) in your current life.
DeleteSometimes you have or have had what you want in life. Until you look back through time and realize that you didn’t appreciate life as it was because you couldn’t step back objectively and see it when you were involved in living it and taking everything for granted because you didn’t know any other way.
ReplyDeleteIn Thornton Wilder’s Our Town, the main character, Emily dies at an early age. She has an opportunity to select a day in her life to return to, but although she is allowed to do it she is told that she will know the future of what happened to everyone but they won’t be able to see or communicate with her. It’s too painful for her. She realizes that most people just live day to day without appreciating everything and everyone they have in their life. “ ("Oh Earth, you're too wonderful for anybody to realize you"). She asks the Stage Manager if anyone truly understands the value of life while they live it; he responds, "No. The saints and poets, maybe – they do some."
Hindsight is key, isn't it?
DeleteAhhhh, if we all could have the wisdom of hindsight. For one thing we'd be able to know the numbers for the lottery or the winnig 🐎 at the Kentucky Derby!!
DeleteHello! I doubt any of you read Pride & Prejudice fanfiction, but there's a wonderful book called The Lake House at Ramsgate, by M.J. Stratton. It was inspired by the film The Lake House, which I only saw, by chace, after having read the book. I actually prefer the P&P novel. As in the film, the two main characters (Darcy and Elizabeth, in this case) are corresponding through a time warp of two years. It's quite well done. As in the film, the female correspondent must do her best to contact the man she has come to love, and hope he receives her letter in time before tragedy strikes.
ReplyDeleteFanfiction can be such a rich place! Thank you for sharing.
DeleteHello from thriller fest… I am still here in New York, and reading every one of your comments the minute I can! Isn’t this a fascinating topic? more to come!
ReplyDeleteHave the best time!
DeleteThank you for having me, Hank!
DeleteA few years ago, my husband made a decision about something. AND THE NEXT DAY, something happened that made implementing that decision impossible. That really made me feel like we were living in a sim.
ReplyDeleteFascinating! Those coincidences are always so eerie.
DeleteThe above is Lori!
DeleteLori, thank you for the marvelous new word! “No-ish” just what I need for today! Elisabeth
ReplyDeleteHa! You are so welcome!
DeleteLori, you are fabulous! What a treat to have you today! Xxx
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