HANK PHILLIPPI RYAN: I was talking to another author the other day-–he writes under a pseudonym. And his nom de plume books are far more successful than the books he wrote under his real name.
Why do you think that is? I asked.
He said he’d really thought about it, and decided that when he was someone else, he felt–free. Beyond judgement. That he was powerful and confident enough to write whatever he wanted, and no one would know who he was.
Whoa.
Which brings me to the fabulous debut author Connor Martin. Who, as he so tantalizingly describes, became "someone else” as part of his job.
Whose Life Is It, Anyway?
Double lives are the heart of all great mysteries, but that’s especially true of spy thrillers. Maybe it’s the hero, running from something or someone, or maybe it’s the villain, tricking the innocent – but show me a character pretending to be someone they’re not, and I’ll show you instant plot tension.
This theme of double lives runs throughout my debut novel THE SILVER FISH, published this April by Mysterious Press. THE SILVER FISH is an espionage thriller about Danielle “Dani” Moreau, an American journalist in Ghana, who gets caught in a U.S.-China spy battle over the fiber optic cables that power the global internet. There are four primary characters in the book, and each of them lives some version of a double life (one of them is literally called The Double!). As one character says: “Your life; another person’s life. They were right next to each other all along... All you had to do was step sideways.”
The theme resonated with me because I, too, lived a double life for a while. For several years, I had a job I couldn’t really talk about. Sure, I could tell people my job title (Deputy Director in the Office of Investment Security) and give a vague description – I worked in a secure office space in Washington, D.C., reviewing national security risks connected with financial transactions – but I couldn’t discuss the contents of my days, not even with my wife.
It was funny kind of double life, because it felt so ordinary. My wife knew where I was, and at the end of the day it was still just a job: we wrote memos and emails, we had meetings and phone calls. But the fact that I couldn’t talk about any of it outside the office left me feeling strangely bifurcated. You got used to it, but it never felt normal.
Those are the kinds of tensions that I wanted to explore in writing THE SILVER FISH (and am continuing to explore in the sequel, which I’m writing this summer!) And whether spy thrillers are your jam or you prefer murder mystery, psychological suspense, detective puzzles, or any other genre, I’m guessing that you’ve come across the narrative power of the character with a double life in your reading.
But really, don’t all of us have multiple versions of ourselves? You don’t have to be a spy to act differently at work than you do at home, or to emphasize some aspects of your personality with one group of friends, but not with another.
And don’t we read crazy real-life stories in the news that bear this out? The creepy New York City architect is really the Gilgo Beach serial killer – or, more happily, the mild-mannered insurance lawyer is really a Pulitzer Prize-winning poet.
Nowadays my double life is in the past. I don’t work for the government anymore. But even so, my vocation as a novelist means I’m still living different lives every day – my characters’ lives. When I get up from my desk and stop writing for the day, I get to leave my double lives on the page. But they’re constantly running through my head.
So here’s what I want to know, Reds and readers – have you ever felt as if you were living a double life? What’s the version of you that nobody else would believe? I’ll be in the comments!
HANK: Ooooh, what a good question! I have gone undercover and in disguise for my TV stories, and it is weirdly...freeing. I think all of the expectations that people might have for “me” are gone, and I can truly be someone else. And now I sitting at my desk in baggy jeans with my hair on top of my head and no makeup–that, Reds and leaders you will never see. But I think, actually, that you believe it.
Living a double life, though? Who has stories? Anyone know anyone who may not be who they seem?
(And Connor, can we also have a blog from your wife? I'm so curious to know how she feels/felt about this....)
(And I want to know if that's really your photo below...)

photo credit Jeremy Varner
Connor Martin is a writer and former senior US national security official, most recently serving as Deputy Director on the Committee on Foreign Investment in the United States (CFIUS) at the Treasury Department. He is a term member of the Council on Foreign Relations and he splits his time between Washington and Brooklyn. The Silver Fish is his first novel.
www.simonandschuster.com/books/The-Silver-Fish/Connor-Martin/9781613167359
www.instagram.com/connor.martin.author/
In this thrilling espionage fiction debut, an American journalist in Ghana is pulled into a dangerous struggle for control of the world's fiber optic cables.
Journalist Danielle "Dani" Moreau has spent a lifetime trying to outrun the privilege she was born into. Fresh off a personal tragedy, she lands in Ghana to uncover corruption in the local oil industry. But when she crosses paths with James Aidoo, an idealistic young Ghanaian whose father is a local populist politician, Dani remembers what drew her to journalism in the first place: you go looking for a story, but when the real story appears, it's never the one you expected.
Dani soon finds herself chasing a scoop that involves an American operative with a violent past, a Ghanaian double agent, and a fight between the United States and China over one of the world's most dangerous and least-known technologies: fiber optic cables. Underwater tubes as thick as a garden hose, the cables snake along the seafloor carrying the world’s information at the speed of light from one continent to another, and the fight to control them is increasingly visible on the world's front pages. Amidst this world-changing struggle, Dani and her new associates will be forced to make deadly choices that impact each other and their own lives in ways nobody expects.













Congratulations, Connor, on your debut novel . . . stories about secret lives and "who are you, really" have always fascinated me, so I'm looking forward to reading "The Silver Fish" . . . .
ReplyDeleteHave I ever felt as if I were living a double life? Not exactly, but sometimes [especially when you are young] you get a bit of a taste of that because no one can tell you and your identical twin apart and they keep thinking you're your sister instead of yourself . . . .
Which is why identical twins are a plot point in so many books and stories, back to Biblical times. The Prince and the Pauper, although not about real twins (or maybe they are), was my first exposure to this intriguing idea.
DeleteJoan, I can't imagine you deliberately using that sort of subterfuge!
OH, you are so right..being a twin would add so many layers of potential complications..
DeleteThank you Joan! Hope you enjoy the book. I hadn't thought about identical twins as a plot device, but now you and Karen have me noodling on the idea...
DeleteCannot wait to see this!
DeleteI’m very compartmentalized, so work me always felt different from home me. That’s happening to a certain extent as we live part-time in Nice - I have a separate email for my life there, and I dress differently when I’m in France.
ReplyDeleteOh, that is fascinating! Dress differently--I would love to hear about that!
DeleteInteresting use of the word "compartmentalized," Lisa -- that is a key concept in intelligence circles! Keeping certain information in different boxes and not letting it cross over. Is that how it feels for you when you are in France?
DeleteIn Nice, people wear black, navy, beige and white. Stripes are the only pattern. While shorts are becoming more common, I still mainly wear skirts and skorts in the summer. While in France, I do still wear some other colors (I can’t give up my beloved purple), but I leave the graphic tees and Hawaiian prints in SoCal.
DeleteWhile I am there, I shop differently (don’t stock up on groceries, just walk to a market whenever I need to) and eat differently. And while info from the US is readily available, there are definitely a lot of things I pay less attention to while I am in France.
Welcome, Connor (or is that "Connor?"), and congratulations. The book sounds fascinating. Do you know Ghana well? There is so much Chinese influence all over West Africa (I've lived in Mali and Burkina Faso).
ReplyDeleteI write gentle murder mysteries, usually with a single POV narrator, so I'm always in my protagonist's head. I kind of love it. I make no secret of my pen name, Maddie Day, but it would be fun to write, say, erotica under an entirely different name and keep my real identity hidden.
((And ooh, maybe she already does, and this is a clever trick....:-))
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DeleteThanks Edith! I spent several months in Ghana when I was younger, many of the scenes in the book come straight from places I visited! Now, what I really want to read is a gentle murder mystery set in Mali or Burkina Faso!
DeleteThanks, Connor. So far my only West African fiction is "A Divination of Death," which appeared in Malice Domestic 13: Mystery Most Geographical (Wildside Press), with a diviner, an American researcher and her Burkinabe translator, and murder in the village.
DeleteHank, blogger ate my comment from an hour ago. Can you please see if it got shifted into spam?
ReplyDeleteSure, I’ll be here in a minute!
DeleteThank you! There it is, just above.
DeleteYup--it's back in a click! Silly blogger.
DeleteFascinating question. I think it depends on the situation. I am basically an introvert and often tell folks that I don't like people. They laugh and think it is amusing never realizing I've told them a truth about myself. My problem is that I've learned to turn my personality and energy level to "ON" when the occasion calls for it. I can be outgoing and, while not the life of the party, I can be fun to be around. Unfortunately, after a couple of hours, my people tolerance becomes nonexistent and I have force myself into "ON" until the time comes when I am can safely turn "OFF" and get away from folks again.
ReplyDeleteAlso, as you mentioned, there are definitely different versions of me depending upon my audience. Best friends get closest to the real me, but no one has ever seen/experienced the complete person that I am. -- Victoria
I can entirely relate to this Victoria! Being "on" was a pre-requisite for my career and I would leave the office and hibernate until I had to return to the office. People assumed I was as outgoing and friendly outside of work as I was there. Ha! I was basically a recluse because I was so exhausted from my stressful/intense job (and also being"on"). Thankfully I have managed to leave that work behind and now live a more balanced life of working from home and this leaves me with energy to enjoy activities in life again.
DeleteOh, this is so wise. "On" is such a powerful tool--and fascinating, too, that we can manage it.
DeleteMe too! Now that I have retired, I enjoy having the bandwidth to spend time with friends and just chat with random people that I meet.
DeleteCompletely agree that different levels of "On" are needed for different situations! I feel this myself!
DeleteCongratulations on your first published novel, Connor. Ooo, I really want to know all about the government job you held and how the US deals with questionable investments. Qatar has funded Middle East studies programs at prominent universities for years and we are daily witnessing the effects of that.
ReplyDeleteHank, I had to chuckle at your description of baggie jeans and no make-up. My friends are always surprised to see me in a dress with make-up.
Connor, the book sounds exciting. How did you decide to make your protagonist a woman?
I guess that is “writer me” And the other one is “public me.” We all have those, so true, right?
DeleteAnd I’m definitely hoping Connor will answer that, too!
Thanks so much, Judy! Wish I could tell you more about my job but I'm limited in what I can say. But I CAN tell you the protagonist was always a woman, from the very first draft. The other main characters are men, but Dani really appeared to me fully formed, and it was a lot of fun to watch her evolve through the various drafts. I put her in some pretty tough spots over the course of the book (and its sequel!) so I've really come to admire her. Some people might consider her an anti-hero though, and I'm always interested in those reactions as well!
DeleteCongratulations on your debut novel! I worked at 9-1-1 for many years, and there were aspects of the job that we weren't allowed to discuss with anyone. We had sensitive incident codes for instance. If a call was a rape, the sensitive incident code was what we would say on the radio rather than the word rape. Of course the news media monitoring their scanners figured out pretty quickly what the codes meant and would call in (on the press line that we supervisors answered when we could) and ask about the call using the sensitive incident code.
ReplyDeleteLike Joan, I have an identical twin, so I am very used to strangers coming up to me and hugging me.I figure I have a whole lot of friends I haven't met yet.
Oh, that must be absolutely fascinating, both of your points! The idea of strangers who think they know you, what a good twist for a book… Although I’m sure it’s been used many times. Nevertheless…
DeleteAnd I did not know that about the incident codes! Although when I worked at the dime store when I was 16, we had a code for a suspicious person that we would call out to get back up…
Hospitals have codes that they use to announce over intercoms. As a twin Gillian did you guys ever pull pranks on teachers or dates?
DeleteThanks so much Gillian! That's so interesting about the hospital codes, I've never heard that but it makes perfect sense.
DeleteYears ago, we knew someone who was CIA, and who couldn't talk about anything he did. Except, his dad let slip that his son was in charge of an Olympic athlete in Sarajevo, and in case of a disaster, he was meant to ski the athlete out ON HIS BACK. Meaning, he was more athletic, in at least one sense, than the athlete? This has always intrigued me, but he would never talk about it, he'd just smile enigmatically.
ReplyDeleteThere was a stretch of my life where I was wandering the house all night, unable to sleep, and fantasized about what kind of hijinks I could get up to were I a different type of person. No one would notice if I had gone out and spent half the night partying or walking the streets or burgling houses. I tried writing that story, but I couldn't even make fictional me that bad. LOL
Connor, congratulations!
Wow, that is quite an image! Yikes, cannot be true?
DeleteThanks Karen! Wow... Skiing somebody out on their back, was your friend's son Superman?!
DeleteCongratulations on your first novel, Conor. Are you also an actor? From the photo, you look like that young actor from Grantchester.
ReplyDeleteNot sure if this fits the idea of "double life". Growing up, I noticed that 98 percent of the hearing people, who work with Deaf people, seem to lead double lives. They keep their personal lives separate from their working lives. We knew if they were married with or without children or single, yet we rarely met their families.
There were times when I felt like I led double lives. For example, in the Deaf world, I seemed unable to play sports well. In the hearing world, I excelled at sports. It felt like I was two different people.
What a unique insight, Diana! Thank you! That is really thought-provoking.
Delete(And I agree about the photo. Who knows what he really looks like, right?)
Diana, when you say people who work with Deaf people - do you mean classroom teachers? In regards to teacher, I was a teacher (middle school) as is my daughter (elementary school) and it was rare (possibly inappropriate in some cases) for teachers to invite students or parents to their homes, but it was nice when the students/parents would make call and invite their teacher to a sports game, or other event.
Delete^^ I would like to add to my post above, that I too like to hear from Diana and her thoughts and comments regarding the deaf world.
DeleteThanks Diana! I'm not an actor... but that really is my photo! That's a fascinating insight about Deaf culture. I enjoyed learning about Deaf culture in Andrew Solomon's "Far from the Tree" and would love to learn more.
DeleteCongratulations on the debut book!
ReplyDeleteI have never lived a double life, but like Lisa, I spent most of my life being pretty compartmentalized, so people who knew me in one setting definitely saw a different part of me than those who saw me in another. The strongest manifestation of that compartmentalization was probably in high school, though. I was a straight A student who didn't want to be known only for that, so I was all business in the classroom but was absolutely willing to break rules and take some chances away from school. In hindsight I'm lucky none of my bad choices outside of school ever had any lasting consequences.
Yes, that is such a complicated time of life… So much pressure from the outside world to be a certain way, or not.
DeleteSusan, sounds like you had more fun than me! Back then I was a goody two-shoes through-and-through!
DeleteThanks Susan! I would like to have known you in high school... sounds like you got up to some interesting things!
DeleteAsk anyone who has been in a production wearing masks how it feels. You are suddenly a whole other person and your voice and movements change.
ReplyDeleteOh, true! Even at a Halloween party!
DeleteThat's a really good point Libby.
DeleteI am quiet, an introvert. My husband is very social, an extrovert, always telling jokes. People look at me and say how sweet I am, etc. They have no idea how sharp-tongued and sarcastic I can be.
ReplyDeleteah HA! And we will never tell...
DeleteCongratulations on your debut, Connor! I love spy novels, and I'm delighted to see they're having a bit of a resurgence, since even though we live in a post-Cold War World, the importance of intelligence and under-the-radar actions remain as vital as ever.
ReplyDeleteSometimes during the years when I was writing and raising kids, I felt as if I was living a double life. I would go on book tour and to conferences and be Julia Spencer-Fleming, giving interviews and mingling with grown-ups, and then I'd come home and be Mom, helping with homework and cleaning up messes. I'm grateful to have had both experiences in my life, but it did really feel as if I was two different people at times.
or--maybe you are just super competent! Just as long as you don't mix the two roles up...
DeleteThanks Julia! Glad to meet a fellow espionage fiction lover! I love hearing about the multiple lives you lived as a parent and an author -- as a relatively new parent myself, I can relate to this!
DeleteCongrats on your debut book. Looks intriguing. And I enjoy spy novels, gonna check it out.
ReplyDeleteNot a double life, however I definitely had multiple personas as professional, went to conferences, led workshops, and worked with clients. And also was a wife and mommy to our children. Both “jobs” were important to me. (HeatherS)
Yes, the double life of a wife and working mom is instantly a juggle! xxx and the stakes are equally high., right?
DeleteThanks Heather! Hope you enjoy the book. And I agree with Hank -- being a working parent is the ultimate juggle!
DeleteI too have a job that requires a clearance and can't talk about. I always get the response, "If you told me, you'd have to kill me, right?" Not exactly, but it is an odd feeling to keep quiet about what I do when I talk about everything else. - Karen R
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